ONE WEEK

Jesse has been gone ONE WEEK. I miss him so much its not even funny. I've always known we were made for eachother but being away really shows me that even more. Sitting down and thinking about it we've been on again off again for 12 years! Together almost completley for 10 years and married for 7 years! I love him so much! The kids miss him a lot and I know he misses us! I've heard from him a few times. Still waiting on letters and his address so I can send him some pictures and letters! We've kept busy with work, baseball, exercising and family time! I am ready for baseball to be over with but I know Jay enjoys it! Last night we walked from about 7:30 till 9:00 and it was perfect outside. I love getting jaycee out and exercising and love it when Kolten behaves!!! I am trying to stay as close to 1200 calories as I can and still try to get in at least two workouts a day! I'm planning on running with a friend tonight and looking forward to that! Jay has games Thursday and Friday and I'm ta king the kids to the pool on Saturday with Aunt C and Lauren. Then Sunday probably head up to my sisters and swim or just hang out! I may try to find something to do friday night hopefully catch up with Andy and Emily and their family, the kids play really well together~!

Right now i'm sitting at 189, thats 116 down from 305!!! Lets go, I've been stuck there for a month probably but not been the best eater.. I'm a stress eater so worrying about Jesse leaving and all that stuff had me snacking.. and now trying to pass the time has me snacking! I told Jesse I want to lose 20 lbs while he's gone so I beeter get going HARD to make that goal! Here I am annoucing my weight to the general public.. Motivation to make it decrease!!

Fitness Challenge

I have decided to participate in a challenge and it is the Slimmer this Summer Challenge which is being hosted by Debbi at Debbi Does Dieting and Princess Mir at Two Years to Happy Weight After. Officially, the Challenge starts on Monday, June 6th but I thought I would plot out my plan ahead of time. The challenge runs for 12 weeks. I would like to be down 30 lbs by then....

I'm hoping that this will help me focus while Jesse is gone! I need all the help I can get. WHOSE WITH ME..

Long Long time, no see.

Life is pretty great, the kids are great and the weather is FINALLY warming up. I love spring and i can't wait for a nice long warm weekend with NO rain! Kolten has had his first birthday and Jaycee is coming up on her 6th. We've been really busy with life and work. The kids are growing up so fast, jaycee LOVES school and can't wait until PeeWee baseball starts. She is so social. She is by far more social then i was at that age! She has recently made friends with a group of triplets in our neighborhood so we went from having no friends over *other then family* to having three girls over quite often. They are really good kids and they play well together.

Lets see what else. I'll post some pictures and you can see how much the kids have grown!

Oh and one last thing. The whole not having anything to do with my dad thing has taken an odd turn, instead of talking to me or texting or emailing even calling me... they saw an attorney to have them send me a letter and ask me to "leave the situation alone" nice to know even speaking of who your dad is can get them that worked up. At least i know they know i'm alive.. I have been trying to push a paternity test but he doesn't have to take it and i haven't heard anymore about it. I'm guessing that he won't take it.

Soooo anyway.. parents enjoy your kids, kids enjoy your family and i can say one thing.. i will NEVER make my children feel the way my father has made me feel. Larry Wagler, I hope one day you will come around and just acknowledge me.. we'll see i guess. I have nothing in my heart but love for him.. even after the hell he has made my life.

Update Kind of...

Ok, i haven't been on here in ages. We've been super busy and I just haven't made the time. Kolten has had an ear infection and been on two different antibiotics but he seems to be doing better. He is growing, last appointment at almost seven months he was 17lbs 14 oz. Jaycee LOVES school. She is doing the cheerleading thing at school so she will preform on the game on friday, can't wait to see that! Jesse and I went to the Colts game today.. I LOVE THE COLTS... Mom came and watched the kids and Matt Amos, jesse's cousin took Jay to the fishing derby at the lions club. They didn't catch anything but I thought that was sweet of him! I love my family, friends and my job most of the time! Jesse has been busy too and we're going out of town this weekend. Thats about it.. Here are some pictures!

By the way my Dads name is Larry :)

Old Post back in FEB that i apparently never posted.

My husband thinks this is so stupid, lol Hope he changes his mind! Anyway tonight I got off work and we went to Bloomington. We went to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner and then drove by Olive Garden just to get dessert to go! It was nice time together, we usually can't run around so much but Jesse is on vacation. He has been off since last monday and he goes back this coming monday. Its nice to have time together and not just be in the routine of going to bed and getting up for work, *even though i'm still having to work*!!!

So about the whole dad situation. I grew up never having anything to do with my father. He is married and has two kids now. (three if you count me). I don't really understand the situation because he is very religious and seems to be a great person. I don't know how someone like that can have absolutely nothing to do with his own child. I have always sent him invitations for everything i have ever done, birthdays, graduation, baby shower, every birthday party we have had for Jaycee. Its amazing to me that it could not bother him at all to know he has a grandchild, a second one on the way and he has NOTHING to do with them. I don't get it. It has been really hard for me growing up, my sister has had things to do with her dad's side of the family. I was always so sad when we were younger when she would go do things with them, because I didn't have anyone like that. I don't get it. Sometimes it bothers me too because Jaycee doesn't have a grandfather. My dad could be one but he doesn't choose too, Jesse's dad passed away and he would kill to be involved in her life i'm sure. After having children I can't imagine not seeing them.

4 Month Checkup

Kolten has grown.. and we just got back from Florida! Jaycee starts school in a couple of weeks and as always things are busy at our house! As of 5-6-09 Kolten Donald is 23.5 inches long and 12lbs 13 oz. He is a big boy! He is eating baby food and rolling over. Florida was great, good family time, spent lots of money but i'm glad we did it! Work is crazy as always and we have taken up a new hobby. Bicycle riding. Jesse got a new bike and i took his old one over and we have been riding for at least an hour a night. We're loving it and its great family time! I love family time! OH and my nephew Cooper Jude just turned 4! My sister and mitch are some of the best parents i've been around, not to mention they are adorable together. I'm very blessed to have such a great sister and brother in law! I love spending time with them!